The Home Office, Pt. II

     I dream I am in Washington.  I’m in the Capitol, in the statuary hall.  I hear deep voices, but they echo so thickly I can’t make out the words.  The echoes multiply and the voices deepen to become a churning cacophony, gnawing at itself and spawning simultaneously.  The noise is insufferable: a tangible presence replacing the oxygen, a black adenoid swallowing elegant marble busts and intricate plaster moldings and, finally, my thoughts.  Endless dark.  And then bright white fluorescent light.  I am in the Capitol, in my office, in my black leather swivel chair, behind my oak desk.

     My wife appears in front of me.  Her hair radiates a crimson halo.  It is brighter than the day we swam in that azure cavern off Capri.  She is naked and her breasts are pert and firm and her pubic hair is that same candied red.  She comes towards me in silence, and I back the chair on its casters away from the desk.  She kneels between my feet, unzips my pants, pulls out my flaccid penis and puts her hands behind her back.  I take her by the hair and she opens her mouth.  Her lips are full and smooth and red and glossy.  I guide her mouth towards the tip of my penis, resting on the black wool of my suit pants.  As her tongue touches the glans, she looks up and smiles and her teeth are razor sharp and her face is old and spotted and warted.  Purple and crimson bruises ring her eyes, visible through her wax-paper skin.  She lunges forward, and I tug her hair against it.  She breaks free, swallowing my member.  Her hair comes out in my hands in dull matted clumps.  I wake up.

     I am cold.  My shirt is wet with cold sweat and sticks to my back.  I sit up and put my elbows on my desk and rest my face in them, by my chin, on the heels of my palms.  I rub my temples with my fore and middle fingers.  I look between my hands at the agenda on my desk.  The black ink swims on the white page, my head pulses.  I pick up the beige telephone receiver from my desk and dial “714″.  I hear a ring in the receiver speaker a second before I hear Laurie’s phone ring next door.

     “Lorena Garcia.”

     “Laurie, it’s me, I’m ready to go over today’s itinerary.”

      ”You sure?”

     “Yeah, come on over.”     I take off my coat and drape it behind me, over the back of my vinyl chair.  I fold the right cuff of my shirt over, then fold it over again.  I fold the thickened cuff one more length up my arm.  The creases start to slip, the fold becomes a tangled roll of cotton-polyester blend, I push the roll just above my elbow.  I repeat the process with the left sleeve.  The door opens and Laurie walks in.

     “Feeling better?”

     “A little, yeah.”

     “Ok.  I went ahead and cleared your morning anyways.  Armistise is gonna be your first appointment, so you’ve got a couple hours to relax.  You should take it if you’re not feeling well, because you have a ribbon cutting at three, and then a police awards ceremony at 5.”

    ”Do I need a tux or anything for the awards?”

     “No, you’re gonna be overdressed like that.  We’ll lose the tie on the way over there.”

     “Anything else?”

     “The Union called, they want a quote on HR-765, and the woman with the hangnail on Medicare, Mrs. Delano, she wants a personal response from you, or she says she’s filing a malpractice suit.”

     “Can she do that?”

     “I doubt she’ll win, but she can file the claim.”

     “Ok, send her a letter saying I’m sorry for her discomfort and that we uh, take very seriously all claims of malpractice by Medicare doctors and that we’re ‘looking into the matter’.”  Laurie scribbles it all down on a note pad.  When she goes back to her office, she’ll transcribe the note to her computer, and then send it to her BlackBerry and then e-mail it to the intern, who will write the letter to Mrs. Delano.   “Is that it for the day?”

     “Except for the private fundraiser tonight.”

     “Shit.  Do I need a tux for that?”

     “No, it’s a luau theme.”

     “What?”

     “It was your wife’s idea.  The caterers are doing a roast pig on a spit.  ’Bringing home the pork’.  Get it?”

     “Very funny.”

     “But that’s it.  And you have two hours until Armistise is expecting you at the barbeque place.  Anything else, or would you like me to leave you alone?

     “That’s it.”

    ”Alright,” she says, neatening her manilla folder, “you’re sure you’re alright?”

     “I’ll be ok.”

     “Ok, let me know if you change your mind, if you need someone to talk to.”

     “I will.  Thank you.  I’m alright.”

     She leaves and closes the door behind her.  My eyes fall on a photograph of myself and Sylvester Stallone.  I lay my forehead on the cool wood of my desk and close my eyes again.  My head pounds.  I stand up and walk out of my office, down the hall to the men’s bathroom.  I lock the door.  I stand over the sink and splash water in my face, rubbing my face with the palms of my hand, slapping my face back and forth between my two hands.  The faucet squeaks as I turn it off.  I set my hands on the edges of the sink and lean in to the mirror for a closer look at the bags under my eyes.  I feel the sink start to give as I put my weight on it, and I quickly stand up straight.  I jiggle the sink.  It feels like it’s attached by the pipe alone.  I look in the mirror and make sure my hair is neatly parted, and I leave the bathroom.  I walk through the maze of aides’ cubicles, to the elevator doors.  I press the “down” button.  It lights up.  I press it again, jamming it into its socket, again, again.

     “In a hurry, sir?” the intern asks.

     “You have no idea.”

    ”Where are you headed?”

     “The Grotta Azzurra.”

    ”Is that a new restaurant?”

     The elevator doors open, and I get on the elevator.  The elevator descends, stops, and the doors open again.  I exit the elevator into the lobby.  I see plastic ficus and shrubs, polyester flower petals and a fish tank.  I see waiting room chairs upholstered in mauve and taupe.  I walk through the lobby.  I push its glass double doors open.  I leave the home office.

This Will Be Our Year

     At midnight, we stood in a room on the second floor and I emptied a bag of balloons onto the revelers in the courtyard.  Then I kissed Andrea.  I lifted her off the ground, with my arms around her waist, by her ass.  She wrapped her legs around me and put her tongue in my mouth, and I put my tongue in her mouth.  Everyone else in the room on the second floor was alone, and I felt bad kissing Andrea so long in front of them.  But I kept kissing her anyways.  We stopped kissing and I took her by her shoulders and looked in her eyes and told her I loved her.  She said she loved me too.  I was angry at everyone else in the room, in her room.  I wanted to be with her alone.

     We left her room and walked through the house.  In the living room, a group of Brazilians sang karaoke to a ten year-old pop song.  The line for the bathroom split the living room from the kitchen, so we pressed through it.  In the kitchen people were talking and mixing drinks.  I didn’t know any of them.  We walked through the kitchen and out the door.  In the narrow side yard were friends from college, leaned along the rickety bare-wood picket fence, smoking cigarettes, making jokes.  I said hello to some of them as Andrea and I passed and they said hello in return.  A couple I didn’t know passed us going the other way and said, “Happy new year.”  I said, “You too,” and took Andrea by the hand.

     In the courtyard were more people, milling about, drinking and smoking, talking and laughing.  The balloons I had thrown from the window littered the floor, forgotten.  Here and there were young men and women too drunk for polite company: the curly-haired boy talking too close to a strange girl, the French girl asleep on a couch next to the dance floor, dreaming a Rubens painting.  The music was loud and the constant vibration of bass osmosed easily through the crush of sweating dancing bodies.  Smoke and steam rose from the scrum.  Through thin layers of fabric, sexes rubbed against one another, against thighs and asses.  Andrea and I drifted into the flotsam and danced the jostle.   She was beautiful, and we danced without touching, as we always do when the music is fast.